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(marriage, being a housewife, moving)

It's been soo long since I updated here that I literally feel completely out of touch lol.  I mean I just posted last week but aside from that, it's been a minute. A serious one!

So I am currently in my beauty closet.  I am on the floor with pillows and I have a little glass of wine to accompany this blogging session. It's kind of a special glass because its been a little while since I've had wine *tears*. I have to be selective about when I have it now, or any drinks for that matter.  Nothing too too serious but I had a visit to the hospital recently and its just been a personal decision to drink less.  So now my drinks are more of occasion drinks rather than daily.  This sounds bad.. lol But it's not as serious as that may sound. More like a special occasion glass of wine verses a daily one is the change I'm talking.     

Anyways, I don't even believe there are ads on this blog at the moment lol (not that important lol, but still, what kind of blogger am I?).. and it won't let me even upload a photo for this post so yeeeaah.. whatever, I still wanted to write anyway so I am.  I've learned recently that you seriously have to go with the flow of things or you end up never starting.. or doing what you want to do in life, even if it just means writing an entry on your blog you know. I'm the type who likes to have things ideal like how they are in my head and when it doesn't show up like that (which is often in life I've noticed lol) I end up holding back on the idea or just never doing it and that sucks. So I'm in the process of changing that now.

But onto what this blog is really about.

 There has been so much change in my life recently that I don't even think my mind has had time to catch up just yet.  It's kind of overwhelming actually.  You know how in your life you have your basic blocks of life that stay the same.  You might experience change but nothing like altering the basic blocks of your living kind of change.  Well, that's whats happening in my life basically.  I packed up and moved.  I got married, talking shot gun marriage too on top of that and not only moved but left my job and freaking packed up and moved to another state kind of change! ..... 

Thats alot to grasp lol.  Like I personally still have not grasped all that change and it's MY life! lol 

but yeeaah.  And as far as job schedule, i didn't just have a complete change of jobs but a serious change of schedule.  I went from working about 7 days a week which is closer to around the time I started this blog to now being a part time housewife basically and working only part time! It's SO weird and so different but I love the new change so far. 

I have no idea how I manifested that much change in that short period of a time.. but I know one thing, it was not easy!  Like it's been the hardest year and a half ever! But that doesn't even matter anymore.  I made it through and am living the dream (minus a couple things lol).  

So yes, I am in my new house, absolutely no furniture but that's ok lol. The only thing that's partially set up is this beauty closet.  But I can say I am finally so happy. Like so happy with where my life is.  Furniture doesn't matter, all of the ideal things I had in my head doesn't matter.  Even make up doesn't matter and that's serious lol.  But no on a serious note I am so happy and thankful to god.  

more blogs like this coming soon.

xoxo t =) <3       

Church night from hell...

Church night from hell...
(story time)

        So last Sunday I decided to go to a little church by the name of victory outreach...  Now I am a person who tends to like more peaceful churches.. that's just me.  I like churches that just teach the bible and that's basically it. Also preferably an hour long max lol.  But this Sunday evening since we (my husband and I) didn't have a church to go to and this one happens to be the closest to us, we just decided to go there.  Now, if you are a regular church goer as in you go every Sunday, you'll know that churches tend to be more chill at night.  They might dim the lights, they most likely have soft music playing and just overall it's much more of a relaxing environment.

    When I walk in, to my surprise it IS that way.. (mostly).  The lights are dim.  There was softer music playing and people kind of spending time with god in there.  But still a little bit more wild.  Let me explain... lol 

   In my old church I use to go to, the quite time was much more quite.  People went to their SEATS and kind of just had there time to reflect, pray etc..  But in this church mostly everybody was up.  Either dancing in the dark like this one lady was kind of dancing/ speaking in tongues right by the speaker.  Also people were laying on the ground by the pulpit.  People were pacing back and forth inside the church which I'm not saying there's anything wrong with this, it's just different for me.

   So this went on about 30 mins or so.  I actually (somewhat) was enjoying the service (at least much more than time before).  So I close my eyes and I was trying to have my time and pray and I guess as I was doing this they were getting things set up..

    As soon as I open my eyes, 5 ppl are all one the stage with microphones looking at me... lol the lights come on, BRIGHT! lol no fade into light. Nope.  They just pop on! and this LOUD music starts and everybody just basically starts screaming.  All the singers are jumping and going HARD, Like with all of their might hard lol. They are sweating and singing at the top of their lungs!  I almost wouldn't call it singing.  More like shouting into the mic as loud as they possibly can..  And everybody is off key just like yelling!

  This went on about an hour which I couldn't actually tell because I think there's no clocks in there.  But also I don't like to be that person looking at the clock, not even on my phone.  But ok, that went on about an hour and then they introduced the pastor.  And just as I expected, the pastor got on the mic and started screaming his head off!  He screamed so hard he was not only sweating but drooling a bit too.  And you know when your screaming and moving so much to get your point across that you get out of breathe and forget what your about to say next?  This happened alot.  It's like he was doing so much that not enough oxygen was getting to his brain so he can think clearly on what to say next.  Between the yelling and karate kicks he was doing up there, I think he tired hisself out. lol  

But.. this church experience still isn't over.  So we are all standing by our chairs and the pastor asked if you wanted to be prayed over to come up...  Now usually in my old church when that happens ppl go up for prayer for specific things they are dealing with. But I forgot that this church is different.

   The ENTIRE church went up and squeezed themselves into the front... and then he said make a prayer circle.  It all happened so fast that there was a giant prayer circle before I  knew it.  I guess my husband got excited by the festivities and just RAN up to the prayer circle and left ME with all our stuff....So I'm sitting there (feeling awkward) by myself minus a couple people that stayed back too and am watching this all take place.  

       Then everybody gets back to their seats and another session of the praise and worship team happens.  Mind you, I was wearing heels through this and we did like alot of standing.  This is one of those churches where no one is sitting so it feels awkward to sit even though my feet were starting to hurt so I just kind of manned up through the rest of it lol.  I was wondering man, why are my feet hurting as we were leaving.  I finally looked at the clock and it was 9.... church started at 6! So that was 3 hours of just idk what... lol

    No offense to ppl who like these churches.  I just cant! lol   

end of church rant



xoxo t <3